来得很快,夜……

我在两个城市不知冷暖的往返,不知所谓的停留并离开。

那天是端午节,该找人相互问候的,可这样的关怀除了形式需要以外,真实可靠么?

突然心里很难过,突然觉得生活是多么卑微多么懦弱的在延伸。无论自己怎么去嗅,包裹身体的只是一种负数!这样的感受来得突然无人提及无人探讨无人关心。

迈进一家不太起眼的星巴克,很欧式很简单的那种。要了杯无糖黑咖啡爬上二楼依窗而坐,一边搅动黑色液体一边搅动还在继续延伸的卑微。

说实话,这黑色液体并不好喝……

翻完带有公干性质的价目单后无事可做,叫住服务生买了包‘LUCKY  STRIKE’,这才想起很久没有抽烟了,感叹了几句它包装的精彩后,连续抽了3支。味道既不精彩也不黯然,连吸烟的动作都淡化得如同形式。

淡蓝淡蓝的烟雾在落地窗上缠绕开,变换出奇异的形体,虚无却存在,最终被白色钢琴的音符全盘接受,消失不见。周围零零散散坐了些情侣,或相互依偎默不作声,或隔桌对坐喃喃细语。空气中混合着很多味道:咖啡、烟草、音乐和欲望。我的鼻子因为感冒其实闻不出它们来,不过它们却那样真实的自己存在着。

选择晚上并同时选择一家有落地窗的咖啡店休息有点意思。

我的头不厌其烦试探了许久,终于找到了既能轻靠着窗又不觉得难受的点。一个估计是刚工作的服务生在我身后紧张的接待着一对刚来的情侣,3分钟内说了9句对不起……

窗外夜色正浓。这个城市遗留着许多屈辱年代成就的伟大建筑,夜巧妙的掩盖住屈辱,灯光后面的它们此刻展现出的全是人类语言库形容词里最华丽的部分。我却不解风情的独自联想着它们后面的屈辱面孔,联想着我此刻端坐的地方过去的存在状态。然后兴趣索然的抽烟,一支再一支。

空气有些变化?琢磨了半天发现空气里失去了音乐!弹奏白色钢琴的女孩子不知道什么时候走掉了。到底是失去音乐导致了失落?还是失去了弹奏音乐的女孩子才产生了空气的失落呢?因为是她的离去带走了音乐。

“算了算了,这都是些什么乱七八糟的问题啊,不想也罢!”

我责怪着自己的神经质,起身走到自动唱片机前,花了足足20分钟找到Suede(山羊皮乐队)的一首老歌,让服务生换来5个1元硬币投进唱片机里,片刻后空气略带忧伤的恢复到咖啡店该有的模样。

《The 2 of Us》


Lying in my bed, I think of you

That song goes through my head,

the one we both knew

In each line lies another line

full of sacred sound

But you're outside where the companies dream

and the money goes round


Lying in my bed.

Watching my mistakes,

I listen to the band they said that

it could be the 2 of us


The snow might fall and write the lines on the silent page

But you're outside ****** permanent love to the nuclear age

Two silhouettes by the cash machine make a lovers dance

It's a tango for the lonely wives of the business class


Lying in my bed

Watching my mistakes

I listen to the band

Lying in my bed

With nothing much to say so I listen to the man

He said that it could be the 2 of us


I heard you call from across the city through the stereo sound

And so I crawled there sickeningly pretty as the money went round


Lying in my head watching my mistakes

I listen to the band

And the drums beat in my head

Pianos chime the sound in this prison of the house

And as the illness comes again can you hear me through the rain

As I listen to the band

As I sing the silent song

Mime each lonely word

Please listen to the man he said that it could be the 2 of us


Alone but not lonely, you and me

Alone but loaded.........


by -三位大叔原创于2006.12.1

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